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1. Today, I'm a lesbian. I've given up on males.
2. Children names: Chloe, Elliott, Oliver, Audrey & Ava
3. Want to cut off my little brother's penis everytime he leaves his fucking piss on the toilet cover. (Which is everyday)
4. Countries I want to visit before I die: Africa (Egypt!) & India
5. I don't know why Wais Moradi isn't talking to me anymore and why things got so awkward with us this (school) year. I blame it on my maturity and his immaturity. I think I'm wrong. But who fucking cares if he doesn't care to save our friendship? Was it even friendship?
6. I want my braces to come off already so I can be beautiful---
7. I'm overweight and I know it. I've tried to go on a diet since forever. I don't give a shit if it goes against my "feminist" views.
8. I fucking hate the peer educator program. Fuck people who laugh at nonsense jokes and give me a fucking hard time when I don't "laugh." Sorry if I'm not fake like you.
9. I yearn for a best friend...or a friend who I can confide in.
10. I wish this Christmas was better...but what's the use of wishing and wasting goddamn wishes.
11. I pity both my little brother and parents sometimes. I hate it when my mom tattletales/complains about my dad with me. She never tells him the truth and when I told her last time that I didn't want to hear the negative comments (I already hate my dad already), she just said that basically I was a bitch for not listening to her. I want to but it's depressing when she tells me about his affairs. As if I don't have enough on my plate.
12. I hate it when people tell me that I can't drink/smoke weed. I'll do whatever I want. So what if I dressed scantily on Halloween. It's my fucking business. Summer.
    
13. I stalk people on the internet and I think it's wrong, but I can't help it. Mostly because I'm jealous of them and their better lives.
14. I'm ashamed of my music tastes...especially asian pop.
15. I can't trust my housemates. They never pick up their fucking phones and when I tell them about my problems, they're always like "Well, one time..." I complained to you because I needed ears, not a fucking record player. They genuinely do not give a crap about me. I can't ask Serene for rides because I'm scared and sometimes, I think she's fake.
16. Intrigued with French stuff.
17. I don't know why Lily doesn't invite me to stuff and why my cousins and I aren't close.
18. I need a 3.0 by the end of the school year and I'm scared.
19. WHY DID THAT BLACK GUY HIT ON ME IN FRONT OF MY PARENTS?
20. I can't trust anyone in this world.
21. I want to tell my parents about my cariledge piercing but I'm scared. I promised them not to punch anymore holes...
22. Things I want (and will probably get): Daisy by Marc Jacobs, Burberry Brit, Netflix subscription (again...*sigh*)
23. Need to listen to: Velvet Underground, Patti Smith, Dusty Springfield...FRENCH MUSIC
24. Green veggies, H2o, juice, less carbo more real shtuff, no junk food, fruits
25. NOTE: stress more about school. GOAL: 3.0 winter quarter, bug the hell outta TAs.

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26. Gossip Girl/Pushing Daisies are my guilty pleasures on TV.

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